I don't know and I don't care

A line that I've been using a lot since like one and half years now, at first it would sound something a "Careless" person would say.. but the truth is it's not, well to me at least.

From quite sometimes I came to realize that I can't possibly be worrying about everyone around me and keep my mind occupied with what they think, how they think, why they think this way, how can I fix it,,,, blablablabla ... all those question seemed to take over my mind to an extent I couldn't achieve anything in that period of time, and when I say nothing I mean "I can't go to the gym, can't go out, can't go to the movies..." small things which I found myself unable to do because I've something "More IMPORTANT" to think of.

One day while chillin' by myself doing nothing,,, I've a flashback of what really I have been doing for the last year,,, and it struck me that there was 0 achievements, I mean not even completed reading one book. And there it begun a determination to change. A HUGE enormous urge ticking my mind to take over my life path instead of letting other people invade my whole brain.

and Yes "I don't know, and I don't care" was like ( I don't know what that person is thinking of (ME), and I don't really care", because as far as I am concern I grew up to be more than Just fine woman, with 100% functioning brain, so why should I keep myself worried about what anyone around me thinks !!

I do care about my loved ones, in such a way that I will always be there for them, I will always try my best to help if possible  I will always want to know about them but not (every f***ing small detail), AND  no I won't exhaust every cell in me just over-thinking what they might feel or say or do if I (said/did) that thing I want to do.

I am past being worried about what others thinks, I have excellent functioning brain that I can use to settle my ideas on my own.
Thanks for you who care, And **** those who judge.

1st May 2013
11:11 am 

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