Friday, May 3, 2013
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
A line that I've been using a lot since like one and half years now, at first it would sound something a "Careless" person would say.. but the truth is it's not, well to me at least.
From quite sometimes I came to realize that I can't possibly be worrying about everyone around me and keep my mind occupied with what they think, how they think, why they think this way, how can I fix it,,,, blablablabla ... all those question seemed to take over my mind to an extent I couldn't achieve anything in that period of time, and when I say nothing I mean "I can't go to the gym, can't go out, can't go to the movies..." small things which I found myself unable to do because I've something "More IMPORTANT" to think of.
One day while chillin' by myself doing nothing,,, I've a flashback of what really I have been doing for the last year,,, and it struck me that there was 0 achievements, I mean not even completed reading one book. And there it begun a determination to change. A HUGE enormous urge ticking my mind to take over my life path instead of letting other people invade my whole brain.
and Yes "I don't know, and I don't care" was like ( I don't know what that person is thinking of (ME), and I don't really care", because as far as I am concern I grew up to be more than Just fine woman, with 100% functioning brain, so why should I keep myself worried about what anyone around me thinks !!
I do care about my loved ones, in such a way that I will always be there for them, I will always try my best to help if possible I will always want to know about them but not (every f***ing small detail), AND no I won't exhaust every cell in me just over-thinking what they might feel or say or do if I (said/did) that thing I want to do.
I am past being worried about what others thinks, I have excellent functioning brain that I can use to settle my ideas on my own.
Thanks for you who care, And **** those who judge.
1st May 2013
11:11 am
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Tuesday, April 16, 2013
“It might not be something you would care to read, but it’s
such a inspiring words that fed my thoughts and made me want to write about it”.
It’s a line crossed my flow of thoughts while thinking of the
relationship between me and two of my elder sisters (Aamaal & Manal), it’s something
that totally fits them, well it’s important to me to note that I grew up with
fabulous 7 other sisters only one was younger than me, and guys I am 23 years
old now so I’ve known these two persons since then.
Couldn’t get this line out of my mind, for different
reasons; one is the fact that I’ve always found (Manal & Aamaal) by my side
as it seems to me since forever and till forever.
The fact that I have a mother never changed the other ideal
mother/friend I found in my eldest sister Aamaal, and the best friend I found
in Manal. Both were as it seems in my mind like some sort of haloed angels, it’s
how I really have a snapshot for them in my inner mind. Call it silly I don't care, but it is the bare truth and interprets codes settling in my this "well kinda regular size head".
Power, confident, compassion, caring, loving and understanding were built and shaped within me in these years because of the existence of these two amazing
persons in my life without them I would have never be where I am now professionally
& socially. The way I formed my life and direct it (wrong or right) was always because I had this outer power and strength in the shape of my two sisters.
When it was wrongful action I did, there were them who only
shined on it, with a bizarre “power” I tend to always get to my senses. When it
was a great job I did, there were them who stand behind me cheering for it.
They are note saints, but they are my perfect flawless creatures on earth.
Their existence made it all happen, with it will always be.
#Randomly want to write this ..
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Saturday, March 9, 2013
It is nothing like the moment I LOVED YOU
I believe it is the second after I laid an eye
on your lips smiling
Or No! It is the second I heard a whispering
"Hi" mumbling
My believes have once again failed me in
knowing which second I fall in LOVE with YOU
With you,, My believe is just one, is just YOU
6 March 2013
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Thursday, March 7, 2013
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